Monday, June 6, 2016

Breakfast Is Served

Today I woke up tired and sore from yesterdays work out so after my morning ritual of getting kids ready,  breakfast packing lunches and dropping them off I decided to take a quick power nap.  I will say I was surprised at yesterdays work out.  My cardio was still there but my muscles got sore tired very quickly.  I expected the exact opposite.  But back to breakfast.  In an attempt to eat cleaner and resist temptation I made myself a good healthy breakfast.  Sautéed zucchini and onions.  3 eggs scrambled with 3oz of ham and a sliced tomato with a little bit of sea salt sprinkled on it.  It was yummy and filling  thats a bunch of food and weighed in at 592 calories.   Now off to the gym for some dreaded cardio.  
 

Sunday, June 5, 2016

I Got My Mojo Back

I've been very quiet the since my last post.  Ive tried to sit down and post to describe the thoughts that were running through my head and why I was struggling.  Every time I sat down to write I just drew blanks.  The only way I can describe how I was feeling would be hopelessness.  the past week I have fought with myself to eat right and hit the gym.  Even though I knew doing those things was for my benefit mentally and physically I just couldn't get myself to do them 100%.  Self doubt and deprecation dominated my mind.  After days of those feelings yesterday I watched a crossfit video called "killing the fat man" on youtube.  And it was uncanny how much I had in common with that guy.  Same thoughts, same feelings and same actions.  Listening to him and watching him succeed and change his way of thinking reignited the fire with in me.  So after a great breakfast I am headed to the gym to go beat the crap out of myself and start taking steps in the right direction again.  And I will be posting again later today.

Thursday, June 2, 2016

Is Failure Part of the Process?

I've been trying to figure out how or what to post for the last few days.  It's never easy admitting failure.  As much as I don't personally know anybody who reads this blog it's still hard to publicly admit mistakes you have made.   I have been so confident and positive during this process and I can honestly say I don't know what happened.  I didn't have any rational reason for breaking my routine.  I had one bad day which I tried to get past.  Next day started out well and then went to shit and for what ever reason I was not able to rebound and get back into my plan.  I have no excuse which is the worst and most embarrassing part.  Generally people would say work, life or some type of significant incident caused you to derail but I have none of that.   When I was a kid if a crashed my bike or was doing something and got hurt my dad would say "Pick yourself up, dust yourself off and try again."  I will take that advice to heart as an adult and pick myself up, dust myself off and try again.  I am still down 10 pounds from my original start weight so that is a positive.  Round 2 starts now!