Why I'm tired of being fat

While at lunch today my buddy asked me  "what's different about this time, why are you so dedicated this time around compared to other times". There are lots of reasons that I feel stronger this time around. One is my mortality. You really don't see fat old people. Another is my mobility. My knees were starting to hurt on a daily basis if I walked around too much. I was a sprained ankle away from being the fat guy in the little cart cruising around Home Depot.  I know if I were to have any kind of serious injury that could be it for me as far as my mobility goes. I have been very lucky so far due to my genetics. I have always been athletic and strong. I think that's why I have been able to keep going. I was riding dirt bikes at 400lbs. People used to come up to me and say "man I can't believe how fast you are for a big guy".  The funny thing is although they were being complimentary I always took what they said as " how is this lard ass able to ride a bike".  I have also been very lucky medically. I have slightly elevated blood pressure but other than that I'm good to go.  Funny story, I rarely see my doctor but last time I went he wanted me to get blood work done.  He bet me that due to my weight I would have high cholesterol and diabetes. But after blood work came back he had to eat some humble pie. Again, pure luck because at my weight I should have more issues than I do.  So the way I see it I'm on the bubble. I'm a few pounds from this house of cards crumbling. Umm...does anybody remember the question at the beginning of this because I seem to have rambled on and am off topic I think. Oh wait I remember. "What's different this time?"  Simply put I'm tired of being fat.  Life in general is hard but as a fat person it adds so much more difficulty.  (I will delve into the details of that at a later date.) As a fat guy I feel I am missing out on a lot of life and I'm just tired of it. I don't want to be limited on what I can and can't do because of my weight.  I'm not talking big things either. Just little stuff like playing with my kids. I couldn't take my kids to Disneyland. And not because I can't get on the rides but because I wouldn't be able to walk around all day with them. Forget all day. I probably wouldn't make it from the parking lot to the gate. And forget about standing in line.  I feel trapped in my own body. My mind still wants to get out and do things but my body won't let me. F*#k you body, I'm taking control again!